Our growing family and other topics

Me with Joey (L) and Ryker (R)

1. Benghazi.  A number of scandals are coming to light involving the Obama administration, but the greatest one in my mind is the fact -- and there can be no other reasonable interpretation of the administration's actions or inaction -- that it willingly sacrificed an ambassador, and other diplomatic, intelligence, and military personnel stationed in Libya, in order to try to advance or preserve the perception that Al-Qaida and its affiliates had been rendered inoperative and unable to strike at America or its interests abroad.  And the attempt to lay the blame at the feet of a would-be filmmaker, and thereby absolve the attackers of responsibility for their bestial actions, only compounds the shame (or lack thereof, depending on your viewpoint).  It isn't likely that anyone important will lose his/her job over it  -- Democrats still get a pass for even the most transparent lies and the most venal of actions -- but thank goodness we live in an age when the availability of information makes it harder for a government agency or official to perpetuate such blatant lies.

2. Kermit Gosnell.  Yeah, so "Doctor" Gosnell was convicted on murder charges, possibly more so for the woman he over-anesthetized, and then allowed to expire, than for the late-term fetuses he killed after they managed to be born alive.  Not only is he the logical reductio of an abortion culture that abhors the least bit of regulation, but he naturally raises the question how different, really, his shop was from any number of "women's health" clinics still in operation.  Any provider with a conscience would do a fair bit of soul-searching.

3. "No sin too great."  I've noticed that the LDS Church has now taken the tack, with regard to trying to re-activate "less active" members, of emphasizing that no sin is so great as to be beyond the reach of Christ's Atonement.  In other words, even grievous sins can be repented of and should not prevent members from coming back into the fold, as it were.  What's missing here, however, is the fact that for many formerly active members, the barrier isn't one of great sin, but, merely, the fact that they have concluded that they can never be "good enough" and that it's pointless to try.  To assume that inactivity necessarily results from serious transgression is extremely myopic in my view (no pun intended); more and more, I ponder the words of the apostle Paul in Ephesians, Chapter 2:

⁴ But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us, ⁵ Even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved;) ⁶ And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus: ⁷ That in the ages to come he might shew the exceeding riches of his grace in his kindness toward us through Christ Jesus. ⁸ For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: ⁹ Not of works, lest any man should boast.

The flip side to Verse 9, of course, is "...lest any man should despair and esteem himself as naught," which describes a lot of Mormons like me.

4. Ken Burns's Jazz.  I recently watched Ken Burns' documentary miniseries Jazz, which was first broadcast on PBS in 2001.  I had enjoyed watching Burns's earlier piece The Civil War, and when Costco in Albuquerque stocked several of Burns's films, I decided to buy Jazz.  Overall, I was a little disappointed in it, as it struck me as depressing, discordant, chronologically confusing, and overlong.  (I also have to confess disappointment in the fact that Burns essentially ignored jazz guitar soloists, with the exception of Django Reinhardt, the great two-fingered French gypsy jazz guitarist -- and even he only came up in a discussion of jazz's being part of a cultural resistance to the Nazi occupation of France during WWII.)  One thing that came across very well, however, is the fact that jazz music gradually became too academic -- too abstruse -- for its own good.  When any literary or artistic expression becomes inaccessible to the masses -- and, remember that swing, an outgrowth of early jazz, was once by far the most-popular form of American dance music -- it runs a great risk of being diminished, regardless of its objective merits.  Modern jazz was instrumental in the rise of soul music and rock 'n' roll, and popular music has never been the same.

[Update 7/11/13: I've re-watched most of Jazz and have noted that there is actually a fair bit about Charlie Christian, the first guitarist credited with using an electric guitar in a jazz setting.  I'm not surprised that I missed it on the first go-round, however.]

5. Prescription Meds.  I finally stopped taking Amlodipine, as it didn't seem to be affecting my blood pressure at all but did appear to make me more sluggish than usual.  I contemplated quitting Sertraline/Zoloft, too, as I was starting to feel more "dis-equilibrated" and unsteadier on the treadmill.  My doctor instead suggested upping my daily dose from 100 mg to 150 mg, but that really seemed to throw me for a loop.  Right now I'm having a lot of difficulty exercising at the gym, and I can't help but attribute it in part to my regimen of prescription medications.  I'd love to be able to get off all of them!

6. Nicole.  Our oldest granddaughter, Nicole, has graduated from high school now, and she's been admitted to Brigham Young University in Provo, UT.  Recently she received  a Dell "AVID" scholarship -- she was the only recipient of such a scholarship from New Mexico this year  -- which will pay most or all of her tuition at BYU.  With a little more FAFSA grant money, she should pretty much have her college paid for.  Having spent more than a little time in the hospital (for "j-pouch" surgeries in treatment for her FAP), Nicole aspires to become a nurse out of a desire to help people with similar afflictions.  Nicole is a beautiful, good, and smart girl, and she deserves all the good things that have happened to her in the last year.

7. New grandsons.  Both Kiley and Kristy have had their little boys now.  Kiley and Sam have named their little boy "Joseph," and will call him Joey -- partly an Australia reference (inasmuch as a kangaroo baby is a "joey"), a nod to Kiley's trip down under with the Albuquerque Youth Symphony in 2009.  Kristy and Chris have named their little boy "Ryker," a name I'd previously only heard in reference to a prison in New York.  (Just kidding -- I like the name.)  Both babies are adorable!

Ryker Lee Ferguson, b. 5/4/13

Joseph Samuel Hobbs, b. 4/19/13

Philosophizing

Aristotle

1. I'm still taking a lot of prescription medications -- Flecainide, Amlodipine, Sertraline, Temazepam, and Zolpidem Tartrate (alternating the last two on a nightly basis) -- but I'm starting to conclude that the combination of all these meds is actually aggravating the cognitive impairment that I've suffered since our Caribbean cruise in January 2010.  It's had a very adverse effect on both my work and my ability to fulfill church callings, which has compounded the sense of uselessness that, to one degree or another, I've had for most of my life.  Sertraline (i.e., Zoloft) may help ameliorate the disequilibrium caused by my persistent mal de debarquement, but it also has a couple of weird side-effects.  One, whereas it does keep me from getting extremely depressed, it also prevents me from feeling very happy, or from feeling much of anything, really; it's a strange sensation not to be able to give much expression to one's emotions.  And, two, it seems to have altered the sorts of dreams I have at night: lately I've been having very concrete, realistic dreams featuring real people, and, the following morning, it's only some little absurd detail that reveals them to me, in fact, to have been dreams.  I suppose I should be thankful merely for being able to reach dream-stage sleep, inasmuch as restful sleep is still the best palliative for my mal de debarquement symptoms, but, as with every other anti-depressant I've ever taken, I question whether the benefits of taking Sertraline outweigh the side-effects.

2. I am much less a sports fanatic now than I once was, in large part because I've come to question whether the top performers in just about every sport -- but especially in track and field, cycling, and baseball -- are "juiced" with performance-enhancing drugs (PEDs).  I've gone back and forth in my mind about whether we should even be concerned about the use of PEDs by athletes, especially since the ability to dope seems constantly to stay a few years ahead of the ability to detect it.  (And, besides, in some cases it seems hard to distinguish between modern sports nutrition and doping.)  However, I can't help but compare doping to affirmative action, in that both cast a shadow of doubt not only on those who avail themselves of them, but also on those who would, in any case, have achieved success on individual talent and determination.  Track and field was one of my childhood passions, but these days I couldn't tell you what the current world record is for any event or who the top athletes are.  It all seems too tainted to care about.

3. The "Obamacare" nightmare is slowly coming to fruition over time, but one thing seems undeniable: far from reducing healthcare costs -- the ostensible rationale for the government's take-over of the healthcare industry -- the "Affordable Care Act" (boy, would Orwell be proud of that name!) will actually make healthcare tremendously more expensive.  With so much new bureaucracy and regulation, the only ways to control medical costs will be (a) to ration care, and (b) to cut remuneration to doctors and other providers.  The first necessarily entails decisions about who deserves treatment -- and who does not -- and thus there will be "death panels," whether they're called that or something else.  The second will lead to a proliferation of under-qualified and under-trained doctors and nurses.  I read sometime back that Britain's vaunted National Health Service is staffed principally with doctors from (and trained in) third-world countries in the Middle East; apparently, medicine isn't a sufficiently lucrative trade anymore to entice many native-born Englishmen to enter it.  I'm still trying to imagine an America in which we have to import most of our doctors from the developing world -- yuck!

4. Despite my physical woes, I look forward to doing at least a couple of long hikes in the Sandia Mountains this summer.  One will almost certainly involve the Pino Trail, which I haven't hiked in about 25 years; I'm told that so many trees have disappeared along that trail in recent years, probably due to bark beetles, that the landscape is much changed now.  After that, I have fewer ideas.  The notion of hiking the entire Crest Trail in a day has stayed in the back of my mind; however, even if I could manage the 28-or-so-mile trek, I'd probably be laid up for a week afterwards.  South Sandia Peak is always an attractive destination, but it's a daunting task to get there.  I guess I'll wait and see if any novel routes occur to me.

5. Same-sex marriage has been in the news a lot lately, primarily because of the Supreme Court arguments happening this month in U.S. v. Windsor and Hollingsworth v. Perry.  I can't say I'm thrilled about the idea of homosexual marriage, although public opinion appears to have shifted so much in the last year or two that I now believe it to be inevitable.  As at least one commentator has noted, it's difficult to say that same-sex marriage will damage the institution of marriage any more than our society has already done to it, although I certainly can't see it helping it, either; the only people who clearly stand to gain from it are divorce lawyers.  Many people think that once two people of the same gender may marry, there will be no logical rationale to outlaw one's having multiple spouses; and, if the latter becomes legal, it's easy to wonder if the LDS Church might once again practice polygamy.  My take?  It will never happen.

6. I sometimes watch parts of Guitar Center Sessions, which occasionally airs on the Audience Channel.  Most of the bands appearing on it are groups I've never heard of, which -- especially when I consider that many of them are already well into their forties -- makes me feel old and behind the times.  (I confess freely that I pretty much stopped staying current with popular music when I got married in 1984.)  A recent show featured a band called "Ben Folds Five," which evidently had a hit song sometime back in the nineties (not that I would have known that).  The host of the show, Nic Harcourt, was interviewing the band's frontman, the eponymous Ben Folds, and the usual discussion ensued about the crap state of the music industry these days.  Folds said something that I hadn't considered, but which seems patently true: In the entire history of music, there was only about a 50-year window in which musicians could become rich.  Obviously, he was referring to the heyday of the record business, which started booming in about 1945 and began to wane in about 1995.  Prior to 1945, it was a big thing to sell sheet music, something highlighted in the Rodgers and Hammerstein musical State Fair; however, it's doubtful that sales of sheet music were ever very lucrative for Tin Pan Alley songwriters.  And, before that, it probably was impossible for any musician or composer to become well-off who didn't have a wealthy patron or benefactor (a point driven home in the film Amadeus).  On the other hand, after 1995, the advent of digital music and Internet piracy pretty well routed the idea of making lots of money off sales of recorded music.  Which leaves professional musicians of all stripes doing whatever they can -- touring and/or teaching, mostly -- to earn enough to stay afloat and keep playing.  All of this seems sad to me, but I see today's generation of musicians as having to pay a karmic price for the excesses of the "rich rock stars" of the 60s, 70s, and 80s.

7. This month marked forty years -- forty years! -- that I've been keeping a journal.  It's always seemed ironic that I started writing to document my thoughts about Dorine, on whom I had a tremendous crush at the time.  My writing at that time was so infantile as to be painful to read now, although I still have every journal volume I've ever filled.  I didn't start writing a lot, however, until my church mission to Chile in 1979-1980; my journal constituted the only real privacy I had at that time, and I wrote in it almost every day I was gone.  I've never counted how many pages I've written in the last forty years, but 10,000 pages wouldn't be an outlandish estimate; that would be an average of 250 pages a year, and I know I've written at least 400 pages in each of the last fifteen-or-so years (I go through 2-3 journals a year, each of which has 200 pages).  Someday I hope someone markets an inexpensive, high-speed scanner that will facilitate making PDF copies of all my journals; I would like them to survive in some electronic format, although I refuse to keep an electronic journal.

[Update 6/27/13: I've since gone back a numbered (cumulatively) all of the pages of my journals.  As of March 29, 2013, I'd written 12,658 pages; thus 10,000 pages was actually a low-ball estimate.]

March 2013 Trip to Utah

Mom with her five sons, 3/15/13

Satellite View of Provo w/landmarks

Dorine with Quorra

Hillery and Kevin with Quorra in Orem

Family at Jeff and Marlyn's house in Lehi

Cait and Darren at Jeff's house

Kyle, Kelly, Roger

Emily talking to Kyle's wife Heidi

Playing "Ticket to Ride" in Grantsville

Ellen's 11th birthday celebration

Our crew with Brian and Dona's family

Cait and Darren in our room at the Super 8

Dorine and I drove to Utah with my mother on Wednesday, March 13, and stayed four nights in Provo before coming home on Sunday the 17th; Dorine was off work due to APS's spring break, so we had a little time for travel.  I've come to loathe the drive up to Provo, having done it so many times now that I could almost do it in my sleep; however, Utah is where Darren and Cait are, along with my four brothers and Dorine's brother Brian, so it's a natural vacation destination for us.  We stopped in Farmington (NM) on the way up to visit with Mom's brother (and my uncle) Wayne Stradling, but we still made pretty good time.  Once in Provo, we stayed in the Super 8, and Mom stayed with Robin and Karolyn at their house in Pleasant Grove -- Mom stayed an extra week to visit longer with my brothers, so she didn't come home with us.  We didn't do a whole lot, but what we did was fun.  We went to dinner on Wednesday night with Cait and Darren in a Mexican-Salvadoran restaurant called "El Mexsal" on 200 W. and 300 S. in Provo.  

On Thursday, Dorine and I did an endowment session at the Provo Temple, and then we shopped for a while before meeting up again with Cait and Darren.  On Friday, we (Darren, Cait, Dorine, and I) had a late lunch at Five Guys in Orem with our niece Hillery, her husband Kevin, and their baby girl Quorra.  Later we drove to Lehi, stopping first at Cabela's to look around and then going on to Jeff and Marlyn's house for a Kartchner family get-together.  It was nice to see all of my brothers, their wives, and various nieces, nephews, and their families.

The following day, Dorine and I went to the Provo Temple to attend the sealing of Michael Ferreira and Drea Ferreira, two of Lynnea's kids, to Roger and Lynnea.  That turned out to be another de facto family get-together, especially inasmuch as our cousin Rick Shumway performed the sealing.  Later, Dorine and I headed north with Darren and Cait, stopping on the way out to the freeway to eat at a pizza buffet in Orem.  We spent the evening in Grantsville with Dorine's brother Brian, his wife Dona, and their family, which was an enjoyable time notwithstanding the 90-minute (one-way) drive.  Finally, Dorine and I came home on Sunday; I drove to Farmington, but, by that time, sunflower seeds were all that was keeping me alert, so I handed over the wheel to Dorine for the rest of the trip.

The Provo Super 8 was looking a little ragged around the edges, although it has nice new TVs and still has a functional exercise room (which Dorine and I used twice during our stay), a continental breakfast with waffle machines, and "free" wi-fi.  A large contingent from Urban Development Solutions -- an outfit that brings people in to a given locale and sells magazine subscriptions door-to-door, blitz-style.-- was staying in the hotel.  Given that all the guys wore shirts and ties every day, at first I wasn't quite sure if they were a religious group or a sales organization, but the latter proved to be the case.

Haven't got a lot to learn....

January 20, 2013

January 2013 passed as the first month since I started this blog in December 2007 that I didn't post something in the entire month.  I've come to yet another point in time at which I feel "written out," and the usual sorts of events that I would document seem, well, a little banal and almost unworthy of comment.

One notable thing that happened in January was my mother's 92nd birthday on the 20th (followed by  Dorine's dad Lynn Wilson's 92nd birthday on the 21st).  The 18th was the 16th anniversary of my father's death in 1997; it's funny how time slips away.  Dorine and I did spend the night of January 4 in Santa Fe at the Old Santa Fe Inn, and we went to the cabin in Colorado again on January 25-27, this time with Kristy and Chris and their family.

I have continued to run on treadmills at the gym, running even more now than in the old days.  I remember one year, about 10-11 years ago, when I set a goal of running 600 miles at the gym, which of course entailed logging an average of 50 miles a month on the treadmill.  I met my goal that year, but it was so taxing that I decided to shoot for a "mere" 500 miles the following year.  Well, counting the vigorous walks Dorine and I have taken on Sundays, I put in a 69-mile month in January.  The reasons?  One, both Dorine and my brother-in-law Mike like to go to the gym, and when I don't go with one (or both) of them, I go with the other; consequently, I tend to go to the gym more often than either of them does.  Two, I'm still so jazzed about being able to run again on treadmills that I actually crave the exertion, however unpleasant it may be in the moment.  And, three, weirdly, it motivates me to have a wide selection of gym clothes, in varying colors, to choose from.  (On the other hand, it's true that I'm not running as fast as I used to do; three miles at 6.0 mph doesn't pound the body in quite the same way as three miles at 6.7-7.1 mph, which was my standard workout for years.)

2012 In Retrospect

Well, 2012 is almost in the books, and I can't help but try to take stock of what's happened this year.  For me personally, all the things I've left, and am leaving, undone have caused the walls of my life to appear to be closing in on me.  There's hardly an aspect of my life -- work, church callings, family life, friendships, home maintenance, etc. -- that I don't feel like I'm falling down on.  The only area in which I've clearly made progress is my exercise regimen, inasmuch as I've resumed running on treadmills at the gym after two-and-a-half years of riding stationary bicycles.  (I've even got to the point where I'm running three miles in 30 minutes, although thus far it's been beating the daylights out of me.)  I have sensed a measure of improvement in my health -- particularly regarding the effects of my mal de debarquement symptoms -- which I attribute to my taking 100 mg of Sertraline/Zoloft every day.  I still tend to feel off-balance, brain-fried, and physically fatigued in the afternoons; however, the fact that I can run for a half-hour on a treadmill, without having the machine feel like it's rocking back and forth, is a minor miracle in itself. 

As for my family, most of us are doing very well, especially considering the concerns I had at the beginning of the year.  Chris has had to put in long hours to keep his auto-repair business afloat, finding that honest, reliable help is hard to find.  However, he and Kristy were able to purchase a nice home this year, and the second "j-pouch" surgery that Nicole had done in Cleveland ultimately proved to be a resounding success, providing reason to hope she'll be able to live a long, full life with relatively minor personal inconvenience.  Kristy is expecting a new baby boy next spring.  Heidi and Dion have had their share of trials this year, and it hasn't been easy for Heidi to have Dion's son Nolan living with them during this school year, but they've hung in there.  Easton has been promoted twice this year at Bradbury Stamm, and although Devery has her hands full at home with a three-year-old and a one-year-old, they seem to be going places.  Darren received his bachelor's degree this year and started grad school, and, of course, he and Cait are now married and seem poised to accomplish great things.  As do Kiley and Sam: Kiley, too, is expecting a baby boy; Sam has been accepted to medical school at UNM; and they have now moved into the larger portion of the duplex in which they've lived since their wedding last year.

I still feel very pessimistic about the long-term prospects for the United States.  As Mark Steyn has noted, the U.S. has been there to cushion Europe's decline, heavily subsidizing its defense for two generations now, but who will be there to soften or hold in check our decline?  That Barack Obama could be re-elected president, after a first term that served only to explode the national debt and push us further down the socialist path that Europe has already trod and found to be a dead-end, bodes extremely ill in my view.  We've seen the steady erosion of constitutional liberties and increasing governmental intrusion in our lives and the personal choices we make, and there's no real end in sight.

Darren and Cait's Wedding

Cait and Darren, December 18, 2012

Our son Darren married Cait Brobst in the Albuquerque LDS temple on Tuesday, December 18, 2012 (which, coincidentally, was his parents' 28th wedding anniversary).  They met at BYU last fall (2011), where they each have another year of school; they will be living in an apartment near the intersection of 500 North and 100 West in Provo.  In a slight twist of the usual wedding protocol, they had their reception on Saturday the 15th at Darren's uncle Mike and aunt Judy's house, and then we had an enjoyable wedding-day luncheon at Garduño’s restaurant, whence the couple departed for their honeymoon.  They spent several nights at the Worldmark resort in Santa Fe before setting out for Rochester, Minnesota to spend the holidays with Cait's parents.  

I guess this really makes Dorine and me empty-nesters, even though none of our kids has actually lived with us since the summer of 2011.  We've already seen how Cait brings out the best in Darren, which is all a parent can ask of a daughter- or son-in-law.  It may be too much to hope that Darren and Cait ultimately settle in Albuquerque, but if Darren could get a job at, say, Sandia National Labs, or perhaps Goodrich Aerospace (where his uncle Don Wilson works), and if Cait could gain admission to physician-assistant school at UNM, it wouldn't break my heart.

"Traded the van for it, straight up...."

"We can get 70 miles a gallon on this hog!"

1. Our new minibike.  Dorine and I recently went to the cabin for a short (two-night) stay with Heidi and Kiley and their families.  (Dion did the dirty work for us in installing new upper-window blinds in the living room.)  While in Pagosa Springs, we decided to buy a minibike (see photo) at the Alco store.  It didn't run well from the start, but it did work well enough that we were able to ride it up and down the road.  We probably will only ever use the minibike in Colorado, but we'll need to have it worked on to get the clutch working properly.

2. Ankle sprains.  The last time I had a bad ankle sprain was in the early part of 1997, when I turned my left ankle after falling off a boulder that I was trying to climb in the Sandia foothills.  (I did tweak an ankle slightly on the last day of the backpacking trek we did at Philmont Scout Ranch in 2004, but my reflexes saved me that time from greater injury.)  I recently realized that the intervening fifteen-plus years has been the longest period of my life in which I haven't had a sprained ankle, as I was fourteen when I had my first bad sprain -- and playing basketball and volleyball would cause me to keep having them periodically, until I gave up team sports entirely at about the same time I developed an interest in rock-climbing.

3. Treadmills.  Our gym, Planet Fitness on Eubank Blvd., recently expanded and acquired a set of new treadmills.  I thought I'd experiment and try running on one of them; I knew I couldn't go very fast, so I did thirty minutes at 5.5 mph, or roughly 11:00/mile pace.  To my surprise, I tolerated it pretty well, despite not really having run for the last two-and-a-half years, and now I've done the treadmill the last five times I've gone to the gym.  The new machines are larger, have better cushioning, and even have hookups that allow the user to control his iPod on the treadmill console.  I don't know how long my body will hold out, but I'm excited about being able to run for the time being.  I'll never get back up to 8:30/mile or 9:00/mile pace again, but I would like to be able to finish three miles in thirty minutes -- we'll see.  I can't say I love running, but I do love being able to do it, however slowly.

4. Atrial fibrillation.  I'm taking a med called Flecainide twice a day for my atrial (heart) fibrillation, which seems to control it quite well.  I can't say what the prescription medications I'm taking now are doing to me, especially in combination, but I'm sure taking a lot of things at this point: Sertraline, Flomax (which I'll stop when I run out of the current supply), Flecainide, and my sleep meds (Temazepam and Zolpidem Tartrate), which I take on alternate nights.  These meds make me feel "weird" -- not sick or depressed, but very aware of all their side-effects.

5. My new job.  I recently changed jobs again, and now I work in the business office of the Geoscience, Climate, and Consequences Effects center (6900) at Sandia National Labs.  It's been a relief to be out of the ECIS SMU business office, as I much prefer to be "on the line."  It's pretty ironic, however, that a "climate change" skeptic like me is now supporting the climate scientists in the company.  Perhaps they'll win me over to the idea (a) that global warming is happening, (b) that the carbon output from human beings is causing it, (c) that draconian measures are necessary to reverse it, and (d) that the measures they propose will actually affect it.  For now, however, I still find it difficult not to believe that money, power, and ideology are driving, and thus corrupting, climate science.

6. More buns in the oven.  We've found out that our daughters Kristy (about to turn 34) and Kiley (age 20) are pregnant with our tenth and eleventh grandchildren.  It was a surprise to us that either was expecting, as we thought Kristy, already the mother of five, was done having children, and that Kiley would wait at least another year to start having children; however, we're happy for both of them.  (Kristy and her husband Chris recently bought a house -- in another ward, unfortunately -- and Kiley's husband Sam has been accepted to medical school at UNM for next fall.)  The fact that Kristy, our oldest, will have her last baby, and that Kiley, our youngest, will have her first baby -- and within a couple of weeks of each other next spring -- makes me feel like a circle of sorts is being closed.  I wish I could feel optimistic about the world our grandchildren will inherit from the navel-gazing, self-absorbed Baby Boomers who've essentially done all they can do to leave it an economic and moral wasteland for future generations.

7. Darren's upcoming wedding.  Darren and his fiancee Cait Brobst will be married on December 18 in the Albuquerque Temple.  I can't help but feel bad for Cait's parents, who, not being Mormons, won't be able to attend the sealing and thus probably won't even bother coming to Albuquerque.  Darren will be the last of our kids to be married, and he seems very happy with Cait; he's working on his master's degree in EE, and Cait is still doing her undergrad with plans to become a physician's assistant.  December is a lousy time of year to be married, as Dorine and I can attest, but of course college students typically have to get hitched between semesters of school.

The Election...with Consequences

Well, I feel tremendously disheartened by the fact that Barack Obama has won re-election.  One could hope that Obama will actually try to be a leader in his second term, seeking to take action to ward off the economic Judgement Day that is in our country's near-future, and that he would want to be known in history as something other than the Nero who presided over the commencement of the catastrophic dissolution of the greatest country the world has ever known.  However, he has shown amply that he knows only one direction to tread -- left -- and I think his second term will pretty much seal our country's fate.  A viable currency is essential to any civilized society, and no country, no matter how large, can sustain annual trillion-unit budget deficits indefinitely; thus I believe that massive devaluation of the dollar due to hyperinflation is practically a dead-certainty at this point.  (I once laughed when my friend Bob Maes showed me an envelope stuffed with near-worthless Argentine paper money and told me that all those billetes literally were what he received in change after paying for bus fare one time while he was serving his mission in Argentina in 1980.  It doesn't seem nearly so funny now.)  

It's instructive -- if unpublicized by the liberal propaganda-meisters in the media -- that a large majority of new U.S. Treasury bonds and t-bills are now "purchased" by the Federal Reserve.  Just like a ditzy Peg Bundy, selling cosmetics to herself (and going hog-wild spending the commissions) in an old episode of Married...with Children, our elected officials act as though the revenue generated through sales of debt instruments -- essentially to the very government that spends it all -- materializes out of nothing and doesn't have to be paid back.  I've begun to rethink the idea of living in New Mexico, simply because when it all comes down, I fear the Southwest will be the Bosnia of what will then be the former United States.  Nobody will want to be here who isn't a predator; the 1980 New Mexico prison riot may prove to have been child's play by comparison.

[Update 1/16/13: Here are excerpts from the Married..with Children episode referenced above.]

There was a time....

Dumb looks are free

Here's a photo of me that I didn't know existed until last year, when Ken Mantlo, a one-time buddy of mine, scanned and e-mailed it to me.  It was taken at his parents' house in Albuquerque, probably in the summer of 1981 (when I was twenty-two), although I don't remember the occasion.  It obviously isn't a particularly flattering portrait, but it reflects a time when I still had a fair amount of self-regard -- something that several failed dating relationships, together with a disastrous first semester of law school in the fall of 1983, caused to dissipate.  At the time, I was a recently returned missionary who, despite not having concrete plans for the future, nonetheless considered the world to be full of possibilities.

I look back on that summer with some fondness, as it was the last truly carefree time of my life.  I was having a lot of fun attending the local singles ward and going to all the young-adult activities, and my "filthy" summer job -- bagging fertilizer at a plant in the South Valley -- blessedly ended after a couple of weeks, when my brother Roger (who had worked there for five years and had gotten me the job) had a fistfight with the boss arising from a disagreement over some tools that one of the other employees had stolen.  Things changed abruptly that fall, when I went back to BYU for what turned out to be my last year there; my brother Kelly got me a job working at Utah Valley Hospital as a "respiratory equipment technician," which had me working 12-hour shifts every Saturday and Sunday.  My work schedule, combined with the fact that I was rooming with Ken, Tracy Carroll, and a football player from Washington state named Bub Mathews -- none of whom worked or was nearly as serious about school as I was -- made that an extremely tough year for me and played a large part in my not ever going back to BYU.  I'm still left wondering where the intervening thirty-plus years went!

The "J"

Here is a still-frame from the 1962 film Lonely Are the Brave, starring Kirk Douglas; the scene excerpted here was filmed on the West Mesa of Albuquerque.  As can be seen in the frame -- and just as there used to be a "U" (for "UNM") painted on a small peak in the Sandia foothills -- there once was a "J" painted on a small peak near the escarpment on the West Mesa.  (It stood for the "College of St. Joseph," a Catholic school later known as the University of Albuquerque, which closed in 1986 and whose facilities now house St. Pius X High School.)  The spot where Douglas is riding here (and it is Douglas, not a stand-in) is not far from the present-day location of our daughter Devery's house.  The "J" -- which is now erased, as is the "U" -- is a piece of local history that few Albuquerque residents know about now, although I remember it well from my childhood.  I especially like the fact that it's preserved, if only for a few seconds, in an old Hollywood film.

[Update 10/17/12: Here are a couple of photos from Google Earth.  The one on the left is an aerial view of the "J" -- note that the peak is very obviously an extinct volcano, and that the outline of the "J" is still visible on the eastern face.  The pic on the right is a broader view of the area, showing the location of the "J" relative to Devery's house, as well as the approximate location where the frame from Lonely Are the Brave was photographed.]

A Few Memories

At Dorine's parents' house, Spring 1986

This photo, probably taken sometime in April 1986, brings back a few memories.  The baby in the picture is Devery, and I had broken the fourth metacarpal bone in my left hand while diving for a pop fly in a spring-league softball game.  Since I'm left-handed, I had to write all my final exams the following month with that cast on my hand; needless to say, it wasn't easy!  Dorine and I had been married for about 16 months at that time, and we used to go have Sunday dinner with her parents, Lynn and Rhea Wilson, at their house on Riviera Rd. NE, where this was taken.  After Rhea died of cancer in the spring of 1990, and ever since Lynn's remarriage a year or two later -- to one of his sons' mother-in-law, no less -- we have only rarely visited the house.  (Lynn has gone with us to a lot of Dorine's softball games in the last few years, so we still see him quite often.)  As Dorine says, it just isn't her mother's home anymore.  It seems strange that Rhea has been gone now for more than 22 years, and that my father has been gone for more than 15 years.  Time flies, whether you're having fun or not!

Seeing this photo also reminds me what Dorine looked like before she got braces on her teeth around 1998 (having teeth extracted at the same time).  Orthodontia changed the shape of her mouth quite markedly -- overall, I'd say for the better, although I thought she was beautiful either way.  (The braces were her idea, not mine.)

The End of Summer

Dorine and I in the Sandia foothills

1. We've been working on our back yard, or at least part of it, to plant new grass.  The job has entailed tearing up a lot of roots from the shade tree in back of the house, which roots had, over time, risen up to the surface.  Then, when we roto-tilled the ground on Friday, we tore up a bunch more roots that were just below the surface, leaving me wondering seriously if the tree will survive.  I hope it doesn't fall over on the house!

2. I wrote a blog post a couple of years ago about our pets -- Baloo the cat, Gekker the leopard gecko, and Mischa the miniature pinscher.  We finally had pity on Baloo and had him euthanized, and then Gekker expired of extreme gecko old age.  Mischa, however, was relatively young and we expected her to stay healthy for a number of years.  Nonetheless, lately she's lost weight, acts sluggish, and seems to be losing her sight.  Diabetes is the first thing that springs to mind -- I guess we'll be taking her to the vet to find out.

[Update 9/12/12: The veterinarian, indeed, diagnosed Mischa with diabetes.  I never expected to care enough for a pet to give it insulin shots, but that's exactly what we're doing for Mischa; however, surgery to correct the cataracts that she seemingly developed overnight -- and which have left her all but blind -- is pretty much out of our price range, no matter the level of our caring.]

3. As the fall presidential election approaches, it occurs to me that, really, the only reason Barack Obama is even in the running for re-election is that he's African American.  (Of course, race was about 90% of the reason he defeated Hillary Clinton in the 2008 Democratic primaries.)  Is it racist to posit that a Caucasian with Obama's record in office probably would have faced a bruising primary challenge and, at the least, would be polling well behind his opponent from the other major party?  The Dems and their allies in the media have none-too-subtly suggested that there can be no legitimate opposition to Obama's policies -- that all such opposition is, by definition, fueled by racism.  Others have said it more eloquently, but when "racism" encompasses sincere policy differences, the word really has lost most of its meaning, and, if enough people wake up to that reality, Mitt Romney will be president next year

4. When I was growing up, both of my parents were registered Democrats (and, for all I know, my mother could still be one).  As the Democratic Party moved steadily left-ward in the late 1960s and early 1970s, however, my father became a Republican and died an arch-conservative.  The biggest difficulties I would have with being a Democrat these days are (a) the fact that unrestricted abortion rights (including late-term abortions) are practically the central sacrament of the quasi-church of Democrat "progressivism," and (b) the fact that the Dems continue to expand government entitlements drastically without any realistic means of paying for them.  No matter what one believes about abortion rights, there simply is no good justification for a third-trimester abortion -- it's baby-killing, pure and simple.  And no matter what one believes government can or should do to "spread the wealth" to the poor, it is the height of irresponsibility and recklessness to increase entitlement spending radically with no revenue to pay for it.  I think the Dems ought to "man up" and confess the obvious truth of these things, inasmuch as one of them is killing our country morally, and the other is doing so fiscally.

5. BYU has played its first football game of the 2012 season, beating Washington State handily, 30-6.  It's not realistic to expect the Y to go undefeated, but, having seen their first outing, I believe there isn't a game on the Cougars' schedule that they can't win.

[Update 9/21/12: BYU has now lost two close games in a row, to Utah and Boise State.  The Y's defense has played heroically, but the offense has been horrible; points given up off turnovers were the difference in both losses.  I won't jump off the bandwagon, but clearly BYU isn't as good a team as they appeared to be.]

6. I've been using an "event monitor" to record heart arrhythmias, and it appears that I have some left-atrial fibrillation that could be caused by high blood pressure.  I believe, however, that the combination of long-term insomnia and chronic disequilibrium have contributed heavily to whatever heart issues I'm having.  I'm on medication for it now, but it's difficult to say what my long-term treatment plan will be.  Diet will undoubtedly play a big role in it, but that won't be easy for me.